Hello dere. Sorry for not posting in a while. The vicissitudes of life and all that.
It doesn't ordinarily do to admit that one ponders on the fate of the human race and of the universe, but I do.
Lately, I have been doing this pondering on the fate of the aforementioned more than usual. This is because I believe we are not that far from reaching an irrevocable point, that has not been exactly well-thought-out.
My view of the universe is unconventional as far as I can tell. I can probably tell pretty far, since I have taken at least a cursory look at a lot of religions, philosophies, sciences and other ways of thinking about the nature of the universe and the place of the human race and of individuals within the universe.
I don't expect anybody else to necessarily agree with me on my take on the universe and the human race and of individuals, but I plan to give a thumbnail of it just for the sake of making things a bit easier to talk about.
Somebody wrote about the idea of the universe as being a giant hologram. That idea seemed like a good one to me. I digested it and put it into my own ideas.
Another idea that seemed to fit in with that, is the idea of the universe as being a sort of giant computer program. The idea of this computer program generating the hologram of the universe seems good to me.
People who think of the above ideas are mostly agnostics or atheists. I am not one of those, although I was an agnostic for a period. After working through a lot of stuff, I concluded that a single being, that I refer to personally, as Gd, short for the usual three letter spelling, exists.
I believe that Gd predated the existence of the universe and created it. The mechanism that I believe created the universe was a computer program, or something similar, within the mind of Gd, which generated the hologram that comprises the universe.
I believe that this hologram is something equivalent to a beta test of the universe, along with the various parts that make up the universe, including the human race and the individuals that make up the human race.
I believe that if the human race and the universe that we inhabit, have a successful beta test, we will become real. I believe our program will be permanently deleted if we do not have a good beta test.
I believe that we are very close to failing our beta test and being deleted forever. I believe there will be a period before the final deletion, that will comprise many religions' ideas of hell.
I believe that a successful completion of the beta test will cause the human race, the individuals that make up the human race, and the universe, to become real and consequently experience something comparable to concepts of heaven.
I believe that we are unlikely to experience a successful beta test and heaven unless we, as individuals, and members of the human race, make drastic changes in our behavior(s).
I was raised as a member of the Roman Catholic Church, which I still regard somewhat fondly, but cautiously and from a distance. I have attended a wide range of religions and read about and studied a great many more. I used to consider myself a Christian, and am not necessarily averse to this identification, but think it is somewhat limiting, compared to my beliefs.
I don't think any particular religion is '
"wrong" or "right". I think Gd and our universe are entirely too complex and immense for finite human beings to even begin to comprehend.
I believe this complexity of Gd and the universe result in all religions being inevitably incomplete. I think each religion has a piece of the concept of what Gd and the universe is like and it requires the plurality of different ways of looking at the universe, including science and agnostics and atheists, to even begin to cover the complexity and immensity of Gd and the universe. I believe all this diversity of beliefs and bits of understanding, is not an accident. I believe that Gd has some sort of enjoyment, as individual humans do, of being understood. I think it is a mistake to argue or quarrel about different concepts of Gd and the universe, since all these concepts are necessary, even though we may perceive them as being conflicting.
I am not attached to anyone else agreeing with any of the aforementioned. It is simply what I have thought about to explain things to myself and use as a way to think about things some more. I don't consider this as even my personal, final conclusion about things. It is just a way to be able to do some more thinking.
I don't think it is humanly possible to ever have a final conclusion about Gd and the universe, since we all have finite minds and are, inadequate to the job of coming to any valid conclusions about much of anything.
None of that stops me from continuing to try to understand more about Gd and the universe, however. I actually enjoy trying a lot.
I consider myself to be very much in love with Gd and believe this is inevitable, if one thinks about Gd much at all. I don't feel a need to reach conclusions about how other people feel on this subject or what this says about them or not.
Since I love Gd very much, this causes me to behave in certain ways. I believe that if one truly loves another individual, or Gd, one will automatically want to know and understand the object of one's love.
I believe that the attempt to understand the object on one's love, either Gd or another individual, will cause one to wish to know what the other individual or Gd wants and will make them happy. I believe that this will cause attempts to change one's behavior to bring happiness to the other individual or Gd.
I do not believe that Gd will be happy if the individuals that make up the human race, the human race as a group, or the universe, fail the beta test we are undergoing now.
I do not believe that individuals who make the human race, the human race as a whole, or the universe will be at our best or happy, if we fail our beta test.
I believe that we individuals who make up the human race, the human race as a whole, and the universe have the option of choosing to succeed at our beta test or not.
I believe that not choosing to succeed at our beta test, or doing nothing, is a failure of our beta test.
I believe that destroying the planet we have been given to live on, the Earth, will be a failure of our beta test.
I believe that many or perhaps, most of the the individuals who make up the human race are choosing through actions or inaction, to destroy the Earth.
I do not believe that it is necessary for all individuals who make up the human race to pass the beta test in order for the beta test to be successful.
I believe that even if a comparatively small part of the individuals who make up the human race make choices and act on them, that will cause them to pass the beta test, that it will be enough to allow for a successful beta test.
I do not know what will happen to individuals who do not make the choices and actions necessary to pass the beta test, but doubt it will be good. I do not consider this to be much of my business.
I am interested in people who wish to make choices to pass their beta test and who are willing to act on those choices and therefore, pass their beta test.
I believe that every individual who makes up part of the human race, has been given a particular spiritual gift or set of them to help them to pass their beta test. I believe it is difficult or impossible to pass one's beta test without the use of one's spiritual gifts.
I believe that the majority of the individuals who comprise the human race never have an idea of what their own spiritual gift, or set of spiritual gifts are, let alone learn to use them.
I believe that some individuals have a glimmering of their personal spiritual gift, or set of them and are making some use of it, or them, and are happier than others who do not do this. I believe that those who partly use their spiritual gift or set of them, are more likely to pass their beta test than those who do not have this, but do not have as good a chance as possible.
I believe that one must become very familiar with one's spiritual gift or set of them and use them as fully as possible, to have the best chance of passing their beta test, and be happy.
I believe that I have been given a complete set of spiritual gifts and that this is unique.
I believe that the purpose of my having a complete set of spiritual gifts (all of them that anyone has,) is for the purpose of being able to tell what spiritual gifts that other individuals have and develop them so that they may eventually make full use of them and pass their beta test and be happy.
I believe that once an individual begins to discover their own personal spiritual gift or set of them, they will begin to have a drive to continue learning about their spiritual gift(s) and develop it more and be happy, and incidentally pass their beta test.
I believe we are sort of hard wired for wanting to find out about and use our spiritual gift(s) once we begin to awaken our spiritual gift(s).
I think our relation to our spiritual gifts happens regardless of our religion, or philosophy or lack of it.
I believe that an individual can develop their spiritual gift(s) regardless of their religion or philosophy or lack of it.
I believe that an individual can develop and use their spiritual gift(s) and pass their beta test regardless of their religion or philosophy or lack of it.
I believe that many individuals have a main spiritual gift and one or more subordinate spiritual gift(s).
I believe that my main spiritual gift is to help others find and develop their spiritual gift(s) and pass their beta test and be happy.
I would like to help more people to find and develop their spiritual gift(s), pass their beta test, and be happy.
That is why I am writing this post. I think that writing this post is exposing myself to problems that I would rather not experience, but I am doing it anyway.
I do not believe that the universe will continue to exist much longer unless enough people pass their beta test. I do not think we have much longer for enough people to prepare themselves to pass their beta test, for the human race, and the universe to be able to pass our beta test and continue to exist.
I find it distressing to think of how Gd will feel if we do not pass our beta test. I dislike the idea of how Gd will feel if we do not pass our beta test.
This idea is one of the conclusions I have reached about what I can do to help Gd to be happy.
Since I love Gd I wish Gd to be happy and therefore want to do what I can to contribute to Gd being happy.
I have written this blog up to this point because I concluded that individuals have no chance to pass their beta tests if they do not survive. I hoped that the information in my blog would help more people survive and therefore have a chance to pass their beta test.
I have concluded since starting my blog, that simple survival is inadequate for passing one's beta test, and finding and using one's spiritual gift(s) is also necessary.
I have already posted a bit about spiritual gifts on this blog, but feel that my efforts in that department are inadequate.
I believe this is especially so, considering how little time is left for us to pass our beta test. I think that if we as individuals and a group, are to pass our beta test(s), we really have to get moving on it. I mean we need to hurry, in other words.
I have over 500 posts on this blog, although some have not been published. It has come to my notice that the number of posts and the information they cover, can be overwhelming to some people.
I am afraid that information about spiritual gifts could easily be blocked by the amount of information on this blog on other subjects.
I feel reluctant to start another blog, but think it is necessary. I am gathering my resources to do so anyway, since I consider it very important. I believe this will probably please Gd. I intend to pray about this, which is one of my personal methods for making decisions that are important. I would appreciate prayers from readers on the matter also.
Thank you to anyone who read this.